'The best person among you is the one who can benefit other people'
Idk why but I guess I keep sticking on this quote. I was born to be a mischievous kid when I was a kid then bcs of that I did many failure and mistakes. I swear I regret rest of life yet there's no turning back. When I'm getting older, I become that damn freaking introvert. People said pain alters one's personality, indeed it's true. I felt two major sadness back then and yeah every one must have secrets which never been told to other people. People or even you may wonder why and why but believe me you will never understand me. Me myself don't even understand my very own self. Too complicated. Sometimes, I feel like I cant make good friends with people. Sometimes I feel like I should live alone, far far from people who know me. Not bcs they did wrongs or what. But it bcs I afraid of doing mistakes and wrongs to ppl around me. Im positive that if I live alone without ppl around me I will not exposed to any wrongs. Just me, if I did wrongs I did to myself. Just it. I always say sorry bcs I afraid if I will not get the second chance to do so and believe me it's really hurt. I swear Im not good at communicating bcs of this fear.
